I live in interesting times

I decided when I started this blog that I would be truthful.. but not identifiable. That lies of omission where permissible.. but those of commission where not. (except within the framework of identity shielding) With that framework in place I could talk about pretty much anything.

In RL I'm a serious guy with a playful center. In SL I'm a playful guy with a serious center.

Jordyn allowed me to express my love of life.. the sincere love of meeting and getting to know people.. that for a variety of reasons I don't express in RL. It's allowed me to make friends with people that I probably wouldn't have in RL.

For those that like to psychoanalyze: In RL I had been so focused for so long on my roles in relation to other people that the ability to play was lost to me. I cut myself off from a childhood by being a surrogate parent because my parents were too busy fighting. When I found the love of my life I cut myself off from family and friends to focus my love on the needs of the one I love. And when I did that.. to some degree.. I cut myself off from myself. This denial of self has been especially strong recently as I've been desperately looking for work. (BTW found some seasonal employment.. which is a start.)

In the last couple weeks my life has taken a wholly unexpected turn. I am being dumped.

Surprisingly I'm dealing with this pretty well.

Job search is still priority number one. I've opened up my job search from Seattle area to anywhere in the globe where they speak English (at least well enough that I can get along.)

I've started to see a counselor to rethink who I am outside a relationship. (I've been told I actually have a pretty good grip on things. I guess It really helps to have an outsiders perspective on ourselves.)

For reasons I may share in some future post I have reduced my Second Life account to a "free account" and I am staying far away.

And the playful me I'm introducing to old and new friends in the real world.

We'll see what life has in store.

That's my update.. As always I wish you well.

JC


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